I won’t get a girl anytime soon. Why! Might everyone and you ask. Well I guess the reason is. I’m just don’t seem like there type. My friend trang was right for every girl I ever asked out she said I’m not there type. Ugh who’s type I am to someone. Is it because im caramel.lol Is it because im not an ass to girls (I’m sorry I just don’t like being an ass to girls even if thats what it takes to like me or see me as there type.) Am I that annoying or not fun to be around with. Am I too sensitive. So many questions that are completely rhetorical to me. Why might you ask. Because I don’t have the best luck. That’s all there to it. My first girlfriend ever broke up with me for another guy. I haven’t dated a girl since then. Even though I got asked out by girls in high school. I just didn’t feel like I liked them enough you know. Now a days I don’t regret anything. But I constantly dream of a relationship that will keep me tie down honestly.
I feel bad when I text because I feel like im annoying the people I text. I have confidence that covers my inner pain. How deep is this pain. Its enough to make sensitive to any word, any mental, or thought that hurts me emotional and makes me cry. I’m human but I’m also a guy. One day a girl will love me for who I am and make my nights so peacefull instead of sleepless nights.
Most of the time I find a girl thats interesting to talk to or just hang out with. What I find most frustrating is the girls that are so immature most of the time in their actions. Sometimes I just think that girls wan’t such a perfect relationship that they forget how much you have to fight for one then expect it to be perfect. A dreamer will never face reality as long as she believes in fairy tales.
I love my life. I really do. No one can bring me down.
Some find it shocking that I only had 1 girlfriend, to be honest I don’t. I decided that I wanted a relationship that would make me happy and last forever. I wanted my first girlfriend to be special and it was. I wanted my first girlfriend to be the best thing to ever happen to me and it was. To me finding a girl worth spending my time with was well worth it. Then going out with every girl or every girl that ever asked me out or liked me. Its just me but its something I felt. Not sure if I will ever have that same feeling or chance again. Some people go out with girls thinking the amount of girlfriend’s you have is special. What matters in life is she the one worth keeping around. Is she the one worth having forever. Is she the one worth marrying. Is she the one that makes you wonder how I ever got you and loves you every day more then you could ever imagine. Yeah thats what matters not the amount of girlfriends you had.